Here we go!

So this blog is a BRAND new thing for me. I'm starting this new chapter because I honestly just have to let things out sometimes. Hopefully I can keep it up!

Here we go!

Since moving home from Tuscaloosa (UA) in May, I have gone through some MAJOR changes. I got married, moved into a beautiful home (which we still can't believe we lucked into), and have semi-started my career as a teacher. When I say semi-started, I mean subbing... not ideal, but I'm greatful! I constantly have to remind myself of the things that I DO have when I start to complain about all of the things that I want or think that I need. God has played a major role in this.

I have started reading Joyce Meyer's "Love Out Loud" and Beth Moore's "Breaking Free". While reading I can't seem to FOCUS on what I am reading. I have really been struggling with getting intimate with God lately. I haven't felt his presence in what seems like forever and I'm starting to wonder what I'm doing wrong. Every day I constantly pray for God to just give me a sign that he is there! Then, the other night I remembered a Bible study that I did with some of my college friends last year. We did the Esther study by Beth Moore... I specifically remember her saying at one point "I didn't feel like God was there..." At that time I didn't understand what she was talking about... How could He not be there? Of course He is! But NOW I completely understand. Now, don't get me wrong, I KNOW that He is there, and I believe and have total faith in Him... but there is something missing in my spiritual life right now. Darrin and I are looking and praying for God to place us in a church because we haven't been going... at all. We are trying out new churches, but we just haven't found the right one yet. So for now, I'm praying and trusting in Him to help us find our way in life. I know He is there, I have given Him complete and total control in my life. I just have to keep my faith.